Hot! A little but important note:

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In my last post I mentioned that I’ve had quite a bit of personal upheaval in the last few months. Well, let me explain:

About a year ago, I realized that I was most likely transgender. I started seeing a therapist, then a small team of doctors who confirmed that I was indeed most likely transgender. I started my transition from a woman to a man in August by beginning hormone therapy, and by this point my voice has dropped quite a bit, I’ve got the beginnings of facial hair, and my metabolism has kicked up a gear. This is a process that I’ll be going through, to varying degrees, for years.

I thankfully belong to some very open-minded units, all of whom have chosen to allow me to reenact in the same roles as the other men in the unit.  On one hand, within another 6 months or so, they’d look pretty silly asking me to portray a female role, but on the other hand, I’ve heard of very, very few units where I wouldn’t have been asked to leave.  So, I give major props to the awesome folks I reenact with.

So, if you see me at an event, please be aware that I’m no longer “galtrooping”, and that I’m actually portraying the role most appropriate for me.  In time, as testosterone works its magic, I guarantee you that it will be much easier to see me as who I am than who I used to pretend to be.

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  1. I’m glad you have figured some things out, and been blessed with good people around you!

    • I have been really impressed, to be honest. When I was at Battle of the Hook a few weeks ago, everyone used my new name and male pronouns without hesitation, even people who I only tangentially know.

  2. I like the way you put that: “I’m actually portraying the role most appropriate for me”. Although I am physically a female, I’ve never been interested in “traditional” female roles or female clothing, and I feel more at home in traditional male roles and clothing. The same is true in reenacting. Although I have no real desire to live full time as a man, and I’m highly unlikely to pursue transition, I feel that male reenacting roles should be open to women who can reasonably pass as men when in kit. Portraying an 18th century male soldier is much more natural and appropriate to me than portraying a female camp-follower.

    • I agree, and I have always been a staunch supporter of the right for reenactors to portray the roles they feel most comfortable in.

      That said, for me, reenacting had always been a huge trigger for me, and was even moreso after I came out this summer. Living as a man full time at home and then having to switch back to being a woman on the weekends was an ungodly amount of stress. Once I started hormones in August, it seemed like a good time to make the switch.

      One of the things I’ve found after being “out” within the community is that there are actually a good number of closeted trans people in the hobby, and that many of them have chosen to leave the hobby altogether when faced with the prospect of having to portray a role they aren’t comfortable with. So, next time a unit has someone who wants to cross-dress, it might be a good thing to ask *why*.

      • I know of at least one Civil War unit that has a FTM trans* guy in a soldier’s role. I don’t know the guy in question personally, but a friend does, and it didn’t sound like it was much of an issue as far as being accepted by the group and such. I don’t know whether he reenacted with them prior to coming out and transitioning, but they don’t allow women to portray military roles generally, so I’d assume not. It was nice to hear about a unit that was open-minded enough not to make a huge deal out of having a trans* member falling in with them, particularly since Civil War reenacting can be a real hotbed of social and political conservativism.